Today I am 30 and I am so happy to finally be at this age.
How I Felt in My 20s:
My 20s were a mixed bag of confusion where every decision felt like a choice between success and failure. I wanted it all, but wasn’t sure how to get there, so I spent a lot of time being frustrated. It was tough being at the bottom of the corporate feeding chain all the time. Russell and I had to work really hard to stay together. But in spite of it all, my 20s taught me a lot of valuable lessons. It’s crazy to think how much has happened in the last decade.
I graduated college with my best friend by my side.
I proceeded to have an odd string of jobs: an assistant editor at a surf magazine in Santa Barbara, legal assistant, au pair, bartender, office assistant at a commercial property management company/furniture store, hostess, server at BJ’s (I hate pizookies), editorial intern at a small independent publishing house. One year I had to fill out 4 W-2s and combined I’d only made a little over $20,000. I learned to live with a lot less. But I was passionate, and maybe a little hardheaded, about finding a job that I love.
I moved to San Francisco after college. I thought I wanted to be a lawyer so I spent a year working at a law firm and taking the LSATs. I loved the city of SF and its unique citizens, but I didn’t quite fit in, yet.
Then I decided I wanted to be a professor. So I moved to Paris by myself to “study” for the GREs in Literature. I went as an au pair and left as a bartender. Two separate jobs, long story.
Then I moved back to Oakland but decided I didn’t want to go back to school. I couldn’t find a job I liked though and I was itching for the big city life. So I packed my bags again and moved to New York by myself. Without a job, very little money and friends, but lots of big dreams.
I went to the Columbia Publishing Program then got a job at HarperCollins. Hooray! I’d found a way to make my passion for books a career.
Eventually I made and reunited with friends from all over.
Got married to the man who supported me through all my ups and downs!
Started this blog.
Got a job at Chronicle Books (where I’d been applying to since graduating from college).
And finally moved back home to California, where I was always meant to be.
I’m looking forward to enjoying this next decade with my friends and family, being open to new life experiences, and appreciating the past that’s brought me here.
Thanks as always for reading. Having an outlet like this to reflect on life is priceless.